Dear myself,

I know people around me think I'm really nice.
But I'm really not.
There are some people that I have such a burning hatred for (most people, actually) and I'm nice to their faces because I don't know how to not be nice. I don't know how to say whats on my mind so I just don't say anything.
And now that everyone sees me as the nice person, every time I say something even mildly rude, people take it in the wrong way. So I don't.
I fantasise about becoming the person one day, who can say what's on their mind, not just go with what's on others'.