Dear Anyone who will read,

Hello,

Let me tell you the story of a quiet exit of living.

There was this young boy named Forrester, and he grew up in a loving family.

Forrester was bounced around home to home due to finacial issues; he never felt like he belonged anywhere. And never had friends for long or relationships.

Forrester's family stayed together and kept strong, and raised him to be a good and moral boy. "Be good and good things will come to you" they told him.

Forrester did not have real developing relationships in the formative years during puberty and thus did not experiment with romance, sexual encounters, or relationships.

His father said "That's all right, go get a degree and make money - that's all that matters in the end... The women will follow."

So he did; he graduated high school early; missing out on relationships, prom, and unique experiences. And got his AA early on.

When COVID hit; Forrester moved away from home to get another degree. And threw himself into his studies, getting in 3 years time.

He always had a large disconnect due to his age and never found anyone to love, and soon he was very lonely.

Forrester worked hard like he was told too, maintaining his morality and good nature. Being generous and kindhearted wkth no expectation of return. He believed his family that if he put good out, good would return his way.

However, the years passed and Forrester grew more lonely whilst living alone - he began to feel an incomprehensible emptiness within himself.

While he saw people with loose morals and dangerous habits live happy lives, but he would never dare stoop so low.

He stuck stubbornly to his worldview, even though he began to doubt it's reality.

Soon Forrester was blowing out the candles on a big 2 and 5 next to each other, and he realized...

Forrester was 25, a male virgin, no experience with anything, 2 degrees that did not help him at all really, and a profoundly remarkable loyalty to his moral code and compass.

He saw the lie that was "good things happen to good people" - he saw evil men and criminal women live happy existences without a doubt or care in their own little world.

But still he did not falter his morals...

By the time he was ready to give love a chance, no one his age was interested due to his lack of experience.

Presuming there was something wrong with Forrester, and that his virginity was a red flag at his age.

Forrester was timid about his vulnerability after realizing that it was never respected and often insulted and shamed.

Forrester understood something...

It did matter how "good" he was, because he was "bad" at living life.

Forrester grew very depressed, but as oftwn as he tied nooses in his spare time - he never once attempted.

Why? Because his family was alive, and he wanted to prop up the illusion of a good life.

He had a descent childhood; his parents never beat him, seldom yelled, and encouraging.

He believed he owed it to them, to stick around while they drew breath.

But once he is left alone, he plans to donate his inherited fortune as his final good deed.

Then proceed for a nice high stakes game of roulette at the Russian table.

"Good things come to those who wait, but not to those who wait too late."

Do NOT let moral principles drive your life...

Do NOT believe the lie that just because you ara a good person does NOT mean you will have a good life.

Do NOT think "if it's meant to happen, it'll happen anyway"

Happiness in life is not a byproduct of your good deeds or actions; it is a byproduct of your proactivity to shape it into your life.

Do NOT feel bad for Forrester

Forrester understands the reality that not everyone gets a happy ending, and that you should NOT feel sympathy or pity for someone as pathetic as Forrester.

Do NOT think you are like Forrester

Try to learn from Forrester's failings and be more proactive in life.

It is too late for Forrester, and no one should feel bad for the man who does think his life is some precious thing.