Dear Nobody™,

i don't think you ever realized how quietly you became part of everything.

you were never really mine, and maybe that's the part that hurts the most. i can't even say i lost you, because i never had anything solid to hold onto. just moments. just feelings. just the kind of memories that don't belong anywhere but still refuse to leave.

i wonder if you ever think about it too. if there are random nights where something reminds you of me, even for a second. or if i've already become one of those things you don't even realize you've forgotten.

i wish i could hate you. it would be easier than missing you in this quiet, constant way. easier than pretending i don't still look for you in places i know you won't be.

but i don't.

i just wish things had been different.
i wish we had been something.