Dear Dear Darlean,,

For almost 50 years I've fantasized about you. We were close friends but I wanted you before I knew what that was. I saw how other boys mistreated you and I wanted to hold you and love you and show you that not every guy was like that. I longed to kiss you and to make love to you. We both moved away before any of that could happen. I know that you became interested in girls about that time and I wonder if the mistreatment you got helped push you there. Now we have our own lives on opposite ends of the country, but sometimes late at night I wonder what it could have been like to hold you close after passionate lovemaking and fall asleep holding you.