Dear my old lover,

i promised id let go. i wish i could so easily.

i cant, and i want to give up so bad. i wish i could turn back time. and i dont get how you would get with someone so easily after breaking mine. sure i did wrong, but you couldve said that wasnt enough, that it was too late. i don't know what to do. ever since you left, the way i expressed my anger to others got worse. and worse. and it all leads to you.

the way you left to be with someone else too soon. i distract my self all the time, but we are stuck with having to see each other every day. and i dont know how to handle that anymore. the way you look at me so disgusted, i just wish i was gone. its not funny.

it may seem like im overthinking, but you left me at a time where so much guilt pent up to me, and i didnt know how to prove it to you that its so hard to change when i am scared that you'll be mad or disgusted at me even more. i dont like it, not at all. why do you hate me so much? why? why do you act like i'm a bug when all i wanted was to be like the person who made you so happy while i hurted you. i dont know anymore. i hate my life. and, as much as i dont want to be selfish and blame it on you, i swear with every bone in my body that the break up ruined my whole chemistry.

you were no busy girl. you just left me to find someone better when i wanted you. just you. you were busy with someone else. i felt more than betrayed. but again, i hurt you. i cant be vengeful and turn it to my favor when i barely followed yours.