Dear Him,

###### I miss you so much words can't even express how much I miss you I wish I never ruined things between us you were genuinely the love of my life but instead of thinking about our relationship the only thing I could think about is what everyone else thought about us when that didn't matter I have to be the most immature person to sit and listen and even talk about you to fit in with everyone else when I knew that was all a cover because to me you were truly the best boyfriend ever when I say I was so in love with you I was so in love with you couldn't get you out of my head type of love I thought we'd be together forever even after the break up every time we'd talk or even " try " to get back together and I declined or you just weren't feeling me I still thought we were soulmates I thought it was a reason god kept making us cross each other paths I thought wow he's really my soulmate we had to be lovers in the past but I'm looking at our " relationship " now I can't even call it a relationship more like our mutual connection and it's hurting me so fucking much nobody understands if I could simply sit and talk with you and we have a real conversation I'd express my feelings and how much I miss you and wanna give us a second chance I don't know why I feel like this my heart ache and tighten everything I think about you and I just cry because crying is the only thing I feel like I can do without getting embarrassed or judged I'm so fed up with the way I acted I just wanna scream so loud and go back in time and be the best girlfriend ever and not give a damn what people think now I see you living your life probably not thinking about me even though I wish you gave me a second thought everyday I wanna run thought your mind like you run thought mine I know this shit is so corny but I really miss you my sweet baby now I see you talk about never wanting to fall in love again feeling like I'm the reason when I know I'm not I wish I was something to you again I wanna hear your voice again I wanna be someone you love again without caring what the world think it hurts me so bad knowing I can't have you back all I can do is watch....watch my baby move on knowing I'll be stuck on you for the rest of my life because you were the boy who actually made me feel love and like I was beautiful besides all this crying and basically asking for a second chance I wanna know if your okay and how your doing if I can't have you as a boyfriend I want you as a friend because god knows I don't want us to be strangers I hope one of these days I can tell you how I really feel without worrying about if you're gonna tell people or if anyone gonna find out because I feel like when I get all this off my chest I'll feel way better but for now I'll just yearn and watch yours truly the girl who misses you