Dear Nobody™,

I feel so lost, man. Idk why. It's like idk. There was a moment where it all just felt so good, but now here I am. Just carrying so much weight on my shoulders. But what even is the weight? Everything feels like a chore. It feels like a constant pattern of up and then back down then back up. What the actual fuck man. Why can't I just be fucking stable. Holy shit. Why can't I just be a consistently fucking good. Like I want to feel average man. Just. Baseline. Why is my baseline down. Idfk man. I hate this shit. Maybe I'm burned out or something. I think I'm avoiding the sadness or whatever the fuck is going on. I'm trying man. Idk. Just so uncertain about everything.