Dear L,

i think the reason i can't stop thinking about you is all of the what if's. it's like what we could've been if we tried. also i feel like on paper we look perfect but really i didn't feel that spark but i still think about you bc i just want to be wanted by you. i feel like i was just used and like you didn't care at all. like i was just another name to add to your list. i wish i didn't feel like that and i hope im just overthinking and that's not how you think of me. i hope one day we will talk about this so i don't feel so in the dark