Dear Avneet,

Another website, hoping that you might one day read this letter. But I doubt it.

I miss you dearly. You were the one who got away and I let it happen. I think about you a lot. A lot more than usual. I have your Christmas card. I still have Franklin and Emma. For inanimate objects, they miss you a lot too. Every shift we worked together, the more I realized I was falling in love with you. It was a decision I couldn't make and I beat myself up for it a lot.

I love your attitude, your dark humor, your gorgeous smile and unforgettable laugh, that beautiful glimmer in your eyes. My days lit up just seeing that we would be on shift together. My heart sank when we weren't. I knew I was in too deep. If I had stayed, I would have followed you to the ends of the Earth.

I think about you a lot. What our future would have held. If we had thrived or sank. If we had fallen more and more in love. But now I'm left with these what ifs.

I wish I could get a text from you; a checkup. I want to know where life has taken you. Where these five years have gone. Have they treated you well? Is someone treating you well? Where has life essentially taken you? I hope for your happiness, but sometimes I wish I didn't have to hope and it was me instead.

Avneet, I love you and always will.