Dear Dear Nour,,

I am writing this letter to let out what has been in my heart for many, many years.

I loved you as my sister and treated you like one. hell, even better than my own sister. However, I was never the same to me.

You always pushed me away whenever you felt like it. You treated me badly while I stayed patiently, waiting for your moods to get better.

I was there for you, but you never were. You were there in some rare moments, but I couldn't find you in my darkest ones.

You were a blamer. You blamed the world, me, and everyone surrounding you for your problems, and you never wanted to get out of the victim bubble, thinking you were the only one with a bad father, thinking you were the only one with a bad life.

I waited for you every time and begged you to talk to me, while you pushed me away and never told me anything good that was happening in your life, thinking I would envy you. I never did.

You envied us and were jealous of us, and it showed. Once we shared something good that happened to us, your happiness never showed; your smile never reached your eyes.

I blamed myself once we grew distant. I would always reflect on what had happened to us. You blocked me everywhere, and for what reason? You never once asked about my dying grandfather or my grandmother.

You never, ever said sorry or apologized after hurting me, yet you would always find me saying sorry for something I never did, just so you could feel better.

You made me feel like a stupid dog running after you every time you weren't in the mood.

I loved you and cherished you, and it hurts to know that you never did...

Stop showing up in my dreams.

Every time I think of you, I can feel negative energy coursing through my body.

I don't hope or wish you a good life. I want to forget you and our days together, because I know you don't wish any good for me.

Goodbye. I hope to never, ever encounter you in my life again.