Dear Papa,

there's so much i could say, but the strength for me to say it all is so little.
i hope i will make you proud.
i wouldn't be able to take disappointing you.
i want to get in great colleges, do well in work, so that i am rich, settled and happy.
i want to make you proud.
so proud that your heart doesn't hurt because of me.
so proud that you smile while talking of me.
so proud that you believe in me, the way you believe in yourself.
i need it.
i need my future to be so bright, it shines on for decades.
please, my Lord, please let me have this.
i have a family that's counting on me, that's looking forward to my success.
i must.
i must.
i must.
please, Lord.
i can't have my papas heart weighing down.