Dear The Universe,

I just spent the day going through my media albums and came upon sex tapes of myself with a recent ex. It makes me really angry that I allowed for any of it to happen. It makes me sick that this fucker got to enjoy himself and deny any wrongdoing. I can't help but think that he hasn't deleted those tapes. He assured me he has but I know this is something he struggles with doing even for other ex-partners who he has tapes of. I am so beyond angry right now. I think hurting someone or destroying something will make me feel really good. I don't want to do it, and I have never done it before but if this is a safe space to voice my intrusive thoughts then here it is.

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I pray that the Universe received my message. I pray that karma is real because there is nothing that I can do to make him pay without also losing myself in the process. I pray that the sick fuck never feels the joy of a female's touch ever again. I pray that his children realize how fucked up he is. I pray that he dies a painful and slow death with no one around him.

Lastly, I pray that no women ever experienced what I did. I pray that the universe gives them signs of what a sick man he is.

To my ancestors and all women who has suffered in the hands of men, I beg for the strength to keep going and persevere through the pain of these memories. I pray that you watch over other women who might cross paths with anyone like him. I promise to do the same for the rest of my life, to the best of my abilities, to defend our collective honour and affect change.

Enough is enough. I will never again put myself in such a position. I am worthy of respect. My boundaries matter. My yoni is sacred. My energy is precious. My voice is strong. My will is strong. I am powerful and more than capable. I am independent and free. There is no room in my life for cowards like him. I owe these assholes nothing. They have no ownership over me. I will continue to shine and enjoy their pathetic envy and desperation to have a part of me as I walk by them. This is who I was always meant to be.