Dear my ride or die,

why did you try in the first place? i know you're okay and you're alive but i wish you wouldve talked to me. i wish you felt you couldve depended on me when you needed me. ..now we cant talk anymore. i dont blame you for that one bit, cause even if we're miles apart. even if you move on, grow up and forget about me, i know one thing; i'll never stop loving you. ...i think maybe i love, or i guess, loved, you too much. more than im supposed to. but, thats not really my end message.

...i wish i could say i dont understand why you didnt reach out to me.
but i really do. im in that stage right now, i never talk about whats bothering me. mainly cause i trust no one anymore, my trust has been broken too many times. so i understand. ...i just wish sometimes, that you had. i love you. xoxo.