Dear Them,

I knew id never be enough for both of you. No matter how much ive tried to make you both happy, even if it meant putting my own happiness aside. Just to hear a simple 'im proud of you' but that never happened. All the times i consoled myself and told myself i am enough, it was all for nothing because im still here, left with nothing but hopelessness. I hoped one day that you both would be proud of me but that feels like too much to ask for and if you know me id never ask for anything.

I guess thats how ive always been...The introverted, ungrateful stubborn girl that you see.....i promise im more than that, but youll never see it and i cant make you. Yeah i guess i let people walk all over me because i feel like its the only way im seen and heard. Yeah i guess i also do keep to myself because no one ever stays to listen but ungrateful? Thats not me. That has never been me. Ive always shown my gratitude but youve never seen it, frankly everytime i pray im thanking god to be able to wake up another day, to be as privelaged as i am and to have an eductation with hardworking parents....but i guess im still ungrateful right, maybe stubborn too cause i always think about myself right. But i still hope that you are proud of me, maybe now or in the future, eveyrthing i have done and achieved was all for you, whether you see it now or maybe never, i still feel blessed to have been your daughter.