Dear Sean [REDACTED],

Hiii I won't be able to say this directly. I might be a coward but I just feel like I don't have the "right" to question how you've changed. I kept asking myself about what's the real status between us cause I'm also confused. I know it's early to say I like you but I'm interested in you. You've been the muse of my poems and letters--which I know wouldn't be sent to you anyway. I know it wouldn't but I still wrote and created each one of them, not because I wanted you to know how much I want you, but I want it to serve as a reminder that at least, once in my life I tried giving another person a chance, that I gave another person a chance to enter my life and see the different sides of me, something which rarely happens. That for once, there was you in my life. For me to remember in the future that once in my life, there was a chapter we shared. I always say to myself it might be you, it has to be you. But destiny's really a playful director. You've been cold lately, no ig reels, you don't even initiate conversation. But it's fine, I'm not mad. Maybe a little disappointed, yes because I thought everything's going right between us. But you just... changed. You've been the person in my mind for countless nights now, every damn time that my mind refuse to sleep late at night, in my mid-lit room. I am a leaver. I tend to ghost people once I feel like they don't want my presence anymore but somehow I couldn't do the same thing to you. My intentions are clear. I want to love you if you just had given me a chance to get to know you more. I sometimes wish that if ever we lost contact, I hope I got to haunt your memory at least once a month, I know that sounds bad. I'm sorry. Don't worry because that backfired on me, you would be one of my greatest what ifs(all of the prior ones were related to acads), Sean. I hope you take good care of yourself and if ever you met someone again, I wish you love her the way she deserves to be. I hope she cooks the egg you wish to have. Have a great day, Sean. Good night.
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