Dear Myself,

I must say, the burden of University, my parents, my depression and having no one and nothing in life worth living for has become unberable. I missed the important years in my life due to a fear of abandonment, knowing now that there was no connection anyway and my parents and friends back then never had an interest in my well being. I dont want to be a man nor do I want to be the person people perceive me as, even if people like me, I will never have the connection I want to have, since I am too much of an outlier. I cannot do this anymore and I cannot wait any longer with my life. I am still too afraid to do anything about it, either killing myself or actually standing up for who I am. The problems prevail.