Dear To my friends and family that keep trying to hook me up with a girl,

Since coming to college, in my freshman year I engaged in sex with other guys. It all started with oral sex, giving blow jobs, but it has expanded to include anal sex. I'm the bottom.

I don't feel gay, I am not emotionally involved. I enjoy sex with guys and I haven't been with a girl. If I look for erotic material, it is always men that I look for, I pass over any naked women. Sitting at the mall watching people pass by, I mentally undress older men with a belly. I definitely have an attraction to older men, especially blue collar and hairy.

So that's my confession, I keep it to myself because in my world I would lose my family and friends, who think I'm just not ready for a serious relationship with a girl.