Dear Dear Unknown-,

my mental health is not gpoing well, it feels like there is something wrong with me, its getting hard for me to understand anything, it feels like im lossing my memories, im forgetting things i dont want to, it feels strange and no one is getting this part of me, it is so hard to make anyone understand itr, its getting hard for me to understand what other person is saying i dont know what happened to me all was going well and then all of this , it is so pain ful so painful that somethings i feel suffocated around people, even i know things but there are no words in on tongue and mind just black smoke it , everything feels so noisy and so loud that i start to get panics , i want to understand what is wrong with me , is my glasses that full that i myself can not breath properly, if i get any work or task or i plan to do to next sec my heart starts to feel heavy everything around me feels heavy, i want to scream tell people around me that try to understand me im not feeling well, i feel sick world around me is not going same as urs , i also want to life with silence want to work without chaos in my mind but its getting worest and im getting silent, hidong my self in box, trying to run soo that i can find peace, this all m,ade me so tired that im exchaused from everything, sometimes i feel like i have lived all the life i wanted to live , have felt all happpiness and sadness now i feel angry on myself, it feels like i now the reason why im alive is that im have to fight with myself and word, but what sth epoint that what im angry about bcz in side me im tired not ready for any fight, all i want peace except that nothing, im tired of these games my mindd is playing with me, idk even if i will be able to cure myself ', dear nobody i know life is tough around us we all are facing some sort of things but sometimes we fight more then our strenght that later when we all on knees even we cant help ourself bcz at a point to feel so upset and disappointed that u dont blame anyone u just blame urself bcz u know that even rn u ur self not there to held urself, ur heart get dissapointed from it self.