Dear To my mom and dad,

Even I would be disappointed if I had a daughter like me the one who is aggressive, the one who doesn't listen, the one who thinks that setting boundaries is controlling.
If I were my own daughter, I would hate me too.
But for my mom, it's different.
No matter how many times I've lied, she always trusts me.
No matter what I do, in the end she's the one who still cares about me.
As for my dad, I feel even more guilty.
If he knew how badly I've turned out, he wouldn't forgive himself. He would think he was the problem, that he made a mistake in raising me.
But it's strange even though I know what's right and wrong, I don't seem to care enough.
Even when I feel guilt inside me, I'm comfortable with it.
Maybe it's because I've lived with this guilt for so long that without it, I wouldn't feel like my real self.