Dear Nobody™,

I feel like a lazy piece of shit, All I've been doing for the past two weeks is just lying in bed with my laptop or phone doing nothing with my life and I've been asking my mom or siblings to get me things like food and water, I have been only rlly getting up to go to the bathroom, I'm not like extremely fat or paralyzed, I've been just too lazy to get up and do things Most of the time I just stay up all night talking to my Swedish friend Because I can't talk to him during the day because it's night for him, I've gotten so attached to him not in a sexual or romantically way I just love talking and playing with him, I also feel like my depression is going to come back and I really fear that, I'm only 14 only turned 14 a few days ago and I don't want My depression to get really bad again to the point wanting to kill myself, It really does feel like I'm not going to accomplish anything in my life, I have dreams of being an astronaut or a scientist but it just doesn't feel realistic enough, i rlly want to do stuff in my life but I'm just too lazy I'm home schooled also and my mom is too nice to force me to do school with her and shes always talking about how if she doesn't do good enough I might not get into a good college and I just feel so bad because it's going to be my fault if I can't get into a good college or a college at all, Anytime I make new friends they always ask what my hobbies are and I can't name a single one and it just makes me feel even more useless, I hope my depression doesn't come back. (If my parents see this because when i was trying to send this it said something about a mailbox tbh idk..)