Dear Kenneth,

I can never escape you. All my memories, thoughts, dreams, emotions, they all somehow tie back to you. I remember every single conversation we've had. Everytime I daydream, I always think about seeing you again, or how it would be like if we went to the same school again, or how it would be like if we started dating (But you've already made it quite clear that you're homophobic. I still can't help but wonder, though). I remember I had a dream about you a month or two ago. You walked by me at school, and the second you were out of my line of sight, my dream just stopped, and I woke up confused. And I feel like that dream really does mean something. Because, ever since you've been gone and we're in different schools. It's like you died, and I'm just desperately trying to fill in the hole in my heart that you left. I developed crushes on other guys, but if I'm being honest. They all just remind me of you in some way. They either look like you to some extent, or they're just as academically smart as you are. Or maybe that just means I have a specific type. I'm not exactly quite sure... I remember a few months ago, my school and yours went to the same field trip. And I saw your face again. At that moment, all my love and affection for you came rushing back. That field trip, was one of the best days of my life. I genuinely felt so happy that day, the fact that I saw you again, and the fact that you were still alive and well, it just filled me up with so much joy. And when I talked to you, it was just a small little conversation, but it meant so much to me. To know that you still remembered me, and to hear your sweet voice again, it meant everything. And ever since that day, my love for you became much stronger, not a day goes by without me thinking of you. I've drawn you in almost all of my sketch books, and I've written some poems about you, and now I'm here writing something on the internet... I love you, Kenneth, I can't express that enough. But I'll never even bother to tell you in your face because I already know you'll reject me. Maybe one day, someone will fall deeply in love with me like how I did with you, or one of the other guys who I have a crush on will like me back. But yet again, none of that love even compares to how strong the love that I have for you is. I know it's hopeless, I know it's a lost cause, I know this is most likely an obsession. And you know what? I'm so desperate, that I'll be fine with just being friends with you. I love you so much that I could never force you to like me back, I only want the best for you, and if I'm not the best for you. Then I'll just have to live with that. And even if you hate me, I'll still be okay, as long as you're happy I could care less about what happens to me. But other than that, I'll just patiently wait for next school year. Where we'll finally see each other at school again after so long. And once again, I love you Kenneth, more than you'll ever know.