Dear Everyone who sneered and mocked at me,

The people in the world who accuse chronically ill people of faking their illnesses make me want to kill myself. I have a chronic illness and I would never ask for this, I never wanted this, I would never lie about this, how everything is fine and then I feel like I'm dying. But because I'm young and female, a doctor even told me I was making up my symptoms until the diagnosis, friends and coworkers have sneered and mocked me, I'm haunted by the constant undertone that I must be faking my illness for attention. When it hits me I am so unspeakably lonely and I wish I was dead. I wish I could shut out these doubts and words. I wish I was healthy. I wish people were not so disgusting as to say these things. I wish they regretted their words. But the bullies always win in the end.