Dear Nobody™,

Am I that hard to be loved? Or am I that unworthy of love? Ever since I can remember, I have always been chasing love, the affection, the care that I have never got ever since I was a child.

I wish I was worth trying for, worth loving, or at least I knew what is it that makes me such unworthy of love?

Few years ago, when I first started self harming, I used to think, I'll for surely get better and not be like this in 5-6 years, and here I am, worse than ever before.

I don't know if this the place to say this but, I got nobody else to say this to, but every other day I wake up thinking that I just want to die. I have got nothing in this life which makes me want to stay alive.

I have genuinely lost, I am not made for this harsh world, not made for these cruel people. Wish this fucking life could end, and my brain, this pain could shut forever. If I kill myself, I wish to be never born again, wish I was dead already. Just want this to end ffs.