Dear Everyone who is in love,

Is it that strange that I have been searching love for the last 4-5 years but I don't want it to be usual?
Like, I want to be myself at 100%, I'm a lot romantic and I play a lot and everytime I be myself with a girl it scares her and everytime my friends tell me to be "more normal for the beginning".
I think it's not fair, I want to be with somebody that appreciates myself and my being, is it too much to ask?
Someone that understands who I am and love me the way I am? Without any stupid mask

Even though I've been searching for someone to live my experience with and to love with all the love I have in my heart, I don't want to lower my standard, am I crazy?
Maybe i am