Dear Mi único y verdadero Evad,

To my one and only love Evad-
To the pain you've inflicted,
And to the pain I brought on myself,

At first, I didn't know what love felt like. It's somewhat ironic for a girl who keeps on saying "I love you" to those around her - because it was never sincere. I was so desperate in wanting to feel it that I selectively give chances to the guys who liked me (talking stages). Despite that, I felt hollow - well, what did I expect? everything was built with lies. Once I've gotten bored of them, I leave. No note. No goodbye. Just gone.

Until I came across you - my one and only love, Evad. You were different. Unique. Mesmerizing. Sweet.

You were the first ever guy who I really loved. There was something captivating about you that made you stood out from the others. Whenever I'm around you, my heart beats faster than ever and my hands would tremble. I hated that feeling... Hated the fact that I can't act normally around you.

After you admitted you loved me, I was overjoyed.
Until... 2 months later.
You became distant.

You rarely reply, yet you're always online.
Then I saw one of your reposts that bluntly admitted that you were purposely ignoring me...
How quickly the tables have turned?...
You hurt me in many ways, yet I stayed... I tolerated your behavior because I was afraid I might lose you.

You claim to love me but don't act like it.

The most ironic thing was that we are both our first. I now believe that you were my karma.
Because 6 months later,
You left.
No note. No goodbyes or whatsoever...

Despite the pain you bestowed upon me, I truly did love you Evad. Everything I said were sincere and true to the heart.