Dear Yuki M. 🍀,

To the boy born in the month of love. I find it a little ironic how you came into the world where love is everywhere, yet you seem to find the idea of love overrated.

You probably have a small idea who this is, not that I'm assuming you've thought about me, but I feel like I'm not as subtle as I thought I was.
I never thought of confessing 'cause I always felt like you already knew. They say you're clueless about things like this, but I never underestimate you-especially when I know how obvious I am.

Yes, this is a confession. I wrote this just to be honest with you and with myself, I'm not asking for anything in return. I never assume nor expect you to reciprocate my feelings, and I'm okay with that.
I'm aware that liking you doesn't mean reciprocation, for me, liking you simply means admiring and appreciating you, even from afar.

I like you-deeper than I expected to.

At first, it was supposed to be something small-a simple admiration, I just like- no, I *love* your smile, I'm not even kidding.
At that moment, when my friends and I walked past your classroom and saw you throwing a piece of trash, my friend teased you about your older brother; you smiled in amusement, and before entering your classroom, you glanced at me with that same smile; although I know that smile wasn't meant for me, but it was somehow enough to make my heart pound.
I don't know what's in your smile that captivated me, but all I know is the way the corner of your lips lift, the way your smile lines appear, your cheeks slightly puffing, the soft wrinkles forming at the corner of your eyes, and my favorite part-the way your brown eyes seems to sparkle as it smiles with you; it stayed with me until now. God knows just how smitten I was with your smile.
When the Rosas Festival came, that's when my feelings grew deeper, I don't even know why, it's not like you did anything to stand out or draw attention to yourself, but the way you simply existed-the way you smile at a joke, the way you laugh and interact with your friends-it was enough to make me smile softly.
Seeing you in your element is something that I truly admire-the way you play so passionate and focused, yet you look calm and having fun in your own quiet way; it was enough to make me pause and admire you with a small smile.
We never really spoke, and I don't know if I was the only one who felt it, but there was always this quiet awareness between us-like we both knew each other's presence even without saying anything. Every time our eyes meet or even just sensing your presence nearby, it was enough to make my day complete.

I've been associating you with the color green and the four-leaf clover, that's why I chose 'Japanese Denim' by Daniel Caesar to dedicate to you.
Meeting you felt serendipity-like walking through a rough path on a gloomy, rainy day and unexpectedly finding a small, green four-leaf clover along the way.
You didn't have to do anything, yet somehow, you brought a quiet kind of light back into my life. Your presence alone changed something in me.
I was at my lowest when I first noticed you-drained from everything to the point going to school felt heavy, but little by little, things started to feel lighter again; It was as if my colors slowly came back as I found a small sense of hope again.

I hope you know how special you are to someone. You are a wonderful person just by being yourself-your silence is someone's peace, your smile is someone's light, your dedication and passion is someone's inspiration and motivation; and that someone is me.
I admit that I don't know you as deeply as the people in your life do, but getting to know you more-even just a little-is something I quietly wished for; if only I had the courage.

If there were moments when my presence made you uncomfortable in any way, I'm genuinely sorry, it was never my intention. I tried to act normal around you, and I was trying not to cross any of your boundaries for I respect your space and comfort.
That's also why I never approached you nor even looked at you, especially around my friends, I promise I wasn't avoiding you, I just didn't want to overstep your space.
Even as my friends encouraged me to talk to you, I never did, not 'cause I don't want to, but because I always thought you felt uneasy around me and because I respect your space.

No matter the outcome, I'll be okay, I just want to be honest with you, but don't worry!! I don't expect you to reciprocate my feelings at all, nor did I assume you'd like me back, so no pressure at all!! And I'm still really really grateful for knowing you and even for the smallest moments I get to experience and cherish. I also apologize for not being straightforward, and thank you so so so much for your patience in reading this, I really appreciate it :3