Dear i mean idk,

hey guys!
i normally have to go downstairs at around 8:15am to go to school and counting closer to the time my brother, mum and dad shout my name. today i was pissed so when my brother came to my room and shout my name i slammed the door on him. i hate it when people tell me my every move and what i should and what i shouldnt do. ive found i underperform when im constantly reminded what do and when i do things on my own terms, the results are much much better. i know what the time it is and im time managing but if you keep telling me what to do i cant take it and my mood switches very very quickly. my mum rushed to my room and screamed at me for slamming the door. i went downstairs, packing my bag and then said that i hate being told what to do and she got mad at me since im stupid and i need constant reminding. its exam week btw and im super stressed out. shes furious at me and i dropped my invisalign somewhere and i used one of my friends phone to call her but she hung up on me when i asked her to drop it off nicely. its such a bad day today and im already stressed out about my exam, and everything. my phone is also taken away, my mum doesn't trust me to study in my room and im not allowed to go out anywhere by myself - including the park. theres also this guy im partially attracted to - ive never talked to him before but i observe him and he looks very good and like i love the way he interacts. i saw him stare at me once and idk if thats good or bad - hopefully good fingers crossed. but i know he wont approach me and i dont know how to approach him. hes very tall. the thing is i can imagine myself with him for a while. i guess its one sided - ion even know his name bruh. theres also a big exam which is in 22 days and my parents and everyone have huge hopes on me for it because i hate this school and i need to get in and please i need to. but i want to approach him after the exam!