Dear Nobody™,

I really don't expect nor need anyone to read this i just need to rant somewhere where I know people can see it even though I don't care if they do ("If a tree falls..." type shit you know what i mean)
We are working on a programming project rn and I really don't know what I'm doing I know I'm so dumb and I don't get what's happening I really don't want to fuck this up my best friend really needs a max grade on this and I'm so dumb and stupid because she was doing the project all by herself and I wanted to split the work among all team members so I asked her if we could do that and she was hesitant at first but then agreed but I REALLY don't know what I'm doing and I'm so going to fuck this up. Just like i did last year with our group project. Also I have a 20 page paper due in 10 days on a really complex topic i chose to do even though i could've picked something easier because i thought MY DUMBASS would be able to do something well ONCE and ofc I failed. I know I'm good for nothing. I don't know what to do and feel really stuck and it fucking sucks rn. I know there are bigger problems in the world and that people have bigger problems than this but fuck I feel so horrible rn wish something would put me in a coma for just long enough for all of this to pass. I love my best friend so much but fuck man I wouldn't love myself if I were her.