Dear Person who doesn't understand,,

You think you know what is going on. You think you know what I deal with. You don't know. You don't understand. You may walk a path similar to mine. But they are nowhere near the same. I face life and death at the drop of a hat. You deal with minor inconveniences. We are not the same. You want to offer advice on matters that you can't comprehend. You want to only hear what you want when I speak, then offer advice on a partial truth. Stop trying to compare our situations. Stop giving advice. Stop.

When your partner isn't whole anymore and you are the only one there for them then you can speak. Then you will understand. Then you will know what it is like to be alone and trying to find your way.

I would never wish this life on you or anyone. But some of us are born to suffer and struggle. To carve a new path. To fight past the pain and learn to smile and live again. This is not for the weak. This is a path only the determined can walk.

I can't see the light at the end of this tunnel that I am walking in and your incomprehension of the darkness that I face is no excuse to tell me you understand. I am doing my best to see a faint flicker of hope. A dying ember of fire at the end. A spark. What I need to walk this path is someone just to listen. Not understanding. Just listen to what I have to say. No questions. No condescension. Just listen. Whether it is to just talk with no purpose other than to hear my voice, that seems to be dying day by day. Or just to rant and rave at what is happening, to just say that I can't do it. That all of this is slowly destroying me. Just let me speak!

I did not come to you for nothing else. I do not want anything more than a person to talk to. I don't want a friend. I don't want a parent. I don't want a problem solver. I just needed a person that would let me talk.