Dear jakob,

honestly you being with janinne has taken a huge toll on my life because it's not only because I've liked you, but because she knew i loved you, before even meeting you. Also, you barely know her, and she's already shown signs that she's cheating on you and it's barely been 3 months like there's no fucking way you fell for her lies and i was the one who sent her that message. i know it was pretty messed up but i couldn't keep my mouth shut anymore; and i don't know if I'm going to be able to handle the performance tomorrow because Janinne is going to be there and what if i break, what if i just explode on her and i say things I'll regret. you might be thinking "why are you so worried" well incase i haven't said it enough times i still love you even though we weren't anything but friends. Jakob i really miss you. the you, you were before her. genuinely speaking i know you have your reasons for choosing her but still it hurt. and the fact that sometimes you act as if nothing is happening confuses me.