Dear Myself,

I just wanna get taken seriously or learn to stand up for myself. when people blame me for thing's i didnt do when my parents side with one of my sibling's even if im the one telling the truth no matter how i please them or explain my side they'll always pick my sibling and yell at me, i just wanna speak up again when it happens i wanna speak but my throat just suddenly shuts down like my mind forgot how to speak like speaking would just hurt me more, in school its worse even if my calssmates hurt me physically or emotionally i cant speak up i wanna say it so badly that it hurts but i just stay quiet even if i wanna cry im forced to hold it back and smile make up a random reason until everybody forgets about it, its a loop everyday they'll hurt me for fun even if i do finally say it hurt's they'll laugh think im joking why cant i be taken seriously... everything has been building up inside me my chest feel's heavy everyday and maybe this confession will help release it even a little because i cant take it anymore...