Dear boy who wanted me to love him,

I used to feel guilty. I used to feel insanely guilty for not loving you back. I felt guilty for rejecting you during a low point in your life. I know how much you wanted me to love you, and how venerable you were with me. I wished I did love you. And then time passed, and I realized that I didn't do anything wrong to feel guilty for. Saying no was nothing bad, and it would have been worse if i had lied to you to save your feelings. I would have to pretend to love you, and eventually break up with you, causing us both much more pain.
Past that though, i miss my friend. I miss you as a companion. We were great friends, and i genuinely believe that if the rejection had never taken place, we would still be great platonic friends to this day. We were so similar, and did so much together. I mourn the friend that i lost, and not the boyfriend that i wouldnt have loved.
I am sad that you didnt want to be my friend after i said no, i feel like we could have moved forward, genuinely. we enjoyed each others company platonically, at least i did. But its okay, i cant blame you for having feelings just like how you cant blame me for not having them.
It was great having you in my life for a little bit