Dear stranger i used to know everything about,

i will never fully be over you
over us
over what we had
over how much you loved me
over what i ruined
im sorry for everything, for not communictaing and giving up.
for pushing you away and then pulling you back in, to push you away again.
the truth is i never stopped loving you. when i finally came to understanding with my feelings for you. i knew i wanted you back and i knew i still had a chance as i could tell there was still something there, then one of my friends began to like you and i was worried about what to do. when she found out i still liked you and was okay with it, i tried to make my move but somebody else has already done that. youd moved on. she ruined you, i hate her for that, for who you turned into because of her. you have a different girlfriend now, one that i like, one that you really love and im happy for you. and i have moved on, it doesnt control me anymore, it doesnt make me bleed or cry, but i secretly hope we find our way back, in the future. i miss you sometimes, and when i do, its awful.