Dear somebody who mattered I think still does,

Hi dear , I hope you are doing well because I wish this letter never finds you.You just dont know how badly I want to say you everything ,confess everything .But you know I cant because I know what can be the consequences .My reason to confess you will to have you always around me but I feel If I do .I will lose you .Do you know that all I feel is, I would take everything what life brings me in the future with you beside me. I want to suceed and fail , I want to laugh and cry I want to do everything and experience everything with you beside me.People say Love is not about having a person in life but isn't it interesting that the whole question was raised because we encountered that person . When I met you for the first time I did not think that this feeling would be that strong. You know what I said you once Grief is the strongest feeling we cannot feel anything else when you are sad. But love is the strongest one , nothing can break you if you are around the person you love and nothing can gather you up if the person you love breaks you .I dont why and what lead to what but all I want to say you is that I love you. Seriously very much. I dont know when this happened but I cannot control it .Even if its unbearable sometimes I like being near you this is not attraction or fling I swear . As much as I know myself I am not somebody who would take care of someone when she , herself is sick .I am not somebody who would work extra so that you are not the one who is scolded. I know some where that you are not good for me because I dont feel being loved with you. But potraying you bad also hurts me as I cannot hate you I dont want to.I know soewhere for a person like me you are not a person I can spend the whole life with.But you know what you are the person with whom I want to talk about everything , share every feeling ,every achievement , I want to have slow dance with you , star gaze with you , read out stories to you , cook for you , support you when no one else will,discuss life with you , discuss about parenting with you , fight with you and then wait for you to come and console me.After getting tired I want to come to you for comfort,for love .I want you to trust me when no one else will.I want to be one with whom you can share everything , every problem I will be there always!! But you know I expect you to be with me when you are with someone else.You know what separating my self from you does not feel good to me either but trying to have hurts even more.I have seen how happy you seem while talking to her.You did today too.But I promise you and myself , I will grow to become the best person.Whenever you meet me next time in life ,you would feel good to have someone like me in your life .I know you will never find this but I will always be a call away . You know last time you cried you just dont know how badly I wanted to hug you .I first decided to confess you but I will not .I love you .I always will.Always .If you ever come across this and realise its me .May be my destiny would have favoured me .If you have even pinch of feelings for me just come running to me . I will always be there .But till you give me a confirmation I should not think of you .I wish you tried to undersand me .I wish I did not have to write this letter to you . Hope to see you soon!