Dear everyone,

i promise i wont make this about myself but listen to me.
ive faced greater crap at a very young age, i mean yea i still do but im talking about the age of innocence.

i hate the family friend uncle who yes... you know happened.
i hate my school days because i was never once truly happy although the word "happy" itself is my name.
i hate how i got dumped by my first love and i hate how i still couldnt properly move on.
i hate how my life still is shitty even tho im just 18.
i hate the fact that i have to face much crap in future.
i hate how my parents adore my elder sibling just because hes older (28) and is earning money.
i hate how i still fight with my mum and dad where my mum still beats me up.

but no matter how much i hate everything

i still wish for uncle's family to always be safe
i still wish to go back to my school days and enjoy when i had the chance.
i still wish for my first love to lead a happy life and have a lovable family in future
i still wish to face my future even if its shitty.
i still adore my family and my elder sibling

i know im being dumb but when you realise that theres nothing to do much in the future and you just have to live your life like how its meant to be, the things you once hated will find a soft spot in your heart.

and also please ignore my grammar and spellings im slightly dyslexic. but if it made you laugh im really glad