Dear Nobody™,

i wonder if I'm the only one going through whatever this is. I've suffered with anxiety and depression from a young age, surviving instead of living. now I'm 25 and still wonder if life will get better. guilt sometimes eats me up because i have a mother who cares for me but I'm still like "this". i tried college but i felt like i didn't belong. i tried working for a while from the ages of 19-22 but everything went down hill from there. now i can't even maintain a job. i fear for my future and loath my self for not becoming someone I'm proud of. disappearing is not a choice for me i have my mother and adorable cat who need me here. I'm still stuck, the feeling of running out of time is haunting me even more than before but i still want to try living, i want to see how far i can get, i want to believe i can accomplish my dreams even if it takes me 10x more work than the average person. if anyone who feels similar reads this just know you are not alone I've been feeling worthless and hopeless all my life because of my anxiety. its tiring, but we can overcome this together. i know we will.