Dear Nobody™,

I am having more frequent thoughts about hurting myself. I never understood it when people did it, like i understand suicide but i never understood why anybody would want pain until i did. I get it, shit can get intense and i felt like i just wanna do it you know? i finally see it guys- new achievement unlocked frfr- i didn't tho, im too much of a coward. I cut myself accidently one time when i was shaving and i kinda remembered that and wanted to feel that again. I seriously don't understand what's wrong with me- i don't even have a sob story im just fucking bored and tired, life sucks yk. the world sucks. people are so greedy and inherently evil but i understand, i understand that there is good too nobody is denying that but the bad just keep fucking stacking on yk. AHH whatever life's shitty whats new about that amiright? im actually really funny trust me but i am also overly pesimissitic..... pesimistic? pessimistic?? was that right? CAPITALISM SUCKS yo also the one who wrote about drugs- im hella proud of you tho you probably won't read it. Also everybody who wrote here is so strong, i read a lot of letters here and damn people got shit going on fr and then i wonder again what the actual fuck is wrong with me, im so ungrateful for wanting to kms and then there is some dude tryna tell me about "3ft drowning and 6ft drowning are both drowning" im the dude, i say that and its true... for others not me.
yk what they say.... coaches don't believe their own philosophy or some shit.
see i told you im funny. Anyways byee i gotta study for a paper (what a coincidence all these thoughts intensifies when im under stress?? crazy.
crazy? i was crazy once.)