Dear Keith G.,

I am only writing this letter because we had was so quick yet ended so abruptly. It seemed that since we had both simultaneously resigned, we would never speak to each other again. I could clearly remember you making a joke once, the first few times you had me in your car, you said that if you were to resign "we would never hear from you again". I guess you weren't kidding. But I beat you to it! Hahaha. I don't even know why I'm sad that I have not heard from you anymore. Truth be told what was even there right? I liked messing around with you. Inside your car. In those parking lots. Not even that. I just truly liked being with you. But with the way things had been the last we've seen each other, I have come to understand you have compartmentalized me into a purely physical thing. While my feelings for you remained the same. I don't blame you. You're entitled to your own preference. It's not my job to "fix" you into being ready for dating or marriage, nor am I obliged to be your girlfriend. But we have completely different intentions. I wish you would have just made it clear with me earlier, that this is what you wanted and only that. And staying with you when you had different ideas from mine was actively hurting me. Whether that was your true motive, or not. I doubt. Maybe you're just hedonistic or carefree. Woah. We barely knew each other!

I want you to know that as distant and moody as I was the whole entire time you knew me, I couldn't fully bring myself to dislike you. As much as I hate how much of a flirt you were and how insensitive some of your jokes were, it seems at times I'm scratching a layer of your personality when it's just the two of us. I liked it when you seemed soft, and reliable. I loved your stories and the sound of your voice and the way your smile looks.

It hurt me how when I acted distant after you kissed me, you never seemed to ask what was bothering me and pretended everything was fine. Maybe confrontation makes you uncomfortable. I just didn't like how everything happened so quick. I should have known then that was the beginning of it. Still I ended up responding to you, and hell even sleeping with you when I've calmed down, and couldnt deny anymore how much I missed you.

You might think our 1st training day was the day I first saw you. Nope haha, remember when I told you I saw you on the testing room on the desktop infront of me? I saw you from your hair to your glasses. I remembered thinking you're cute. Then we ended up at the same wave.

Also, remember when you squeezed yourself into my conversation with my two other co-workers and you were holding a cup to your mouth and I was drinking coffee and then we looked at each other and you blinked at me and leaned towards my face?
I knew then I truly had a crush on you. You probably knew this whole entire time I mean I kissed you! I kept asking to be kissed by you anyway!

But you seemed to be into somebody else from what I heard during that time, she's a friend of ours. Not sure how true it was, but that already made our beginning kind of rocky for me. I didn't know if I could trust you.

I probably have much more to say I just can't remember. So much so had happened, and we have quite the incompatibility. I still miss you though. But this is probably for the best. Thank you for all the car rides and for helping me retrieve my bag that one time I so stupidly left it in public transport. As disastrous everything seemed for us in those 5 months I have known you, I'm happy we met. I don't regret you and I wouldn't have it any other way. Weeks passed already since we saw each other on the company elevators, I'm happy we got to share a few words with each other for the last time. Even if it was just about returning stuff haha. Also, take better care of your health! You seemed to always be sick the last time I've seen you.

Take care wherever you are. Genuinely, I wish you well.

(p.s remember that pack of Welch's fruit snacks we shared that Christmas morning I lost my virginity to you? I never threw it away. It's still on my bag, super creepy right? Hahaha. It's my keepsake. A mile stone of some sort. I hope you don't mind.)