Dear Cassie,

Hello, it's me.
The weather outside is finally starting to feel warm and inviting; it reminds me of our summers, and it warms my heart more than it aches. I think of you constantly, every day. You are always present in every way possible, as if we never parted at all. But now, I cannot feel your warmth, and I cannot feel your heartbeat beside me.

I love you. I never stopped loving you. I miss you every day. I do not hate you, and I never will. I only hope that you are okay. May everything you have ever wanted come true for you. I wish you would never spend a single day without knowing you are loved, and I wish, with all my heart, that love always finds you.

I know I was not the best partner you could have asked for. My flaws ruined everything, and I never wanted to hurt you. Instead, I did everything I could to protect you. I see things differently, and they are not always so clear, especially to you. I understood that you no longer wanted me, which is why I chose to disappear from your life. I did it to avoid interfering, to spare you any trouble, and to become invisible. I decided not to reach out, to let you live your life freely.

It hurts, but I did not want to be a burden. I was going through a difficult year, but I did not want to weigh you down too. You had your own struggles, and I respected that. I hope you do not hate me.

I will always love you unconditionally. There is no need to ask me for forgiveness, because I have already forgiven you completely.

My sweet little ray of sunshine, you had your reasons, and I understand. I just needed clear instructions on what to do and how to do it. I am nothing more than someone who followed orders, a coward full of fear. I am sorry I did not love you the way you deserved. I am sorry if I held back so much that you never felt like you had someone to rely on, someone to care for, or someone to count on.

I will always wait for you to come back, even if you never do. I will always be that fool waiting, because I feel a connection that is hard to explain. Every kind word I said to you, every moment I shared it all came from the bottom of my heart. And every apology for the times I failed you was sincere. I am not petty; I am just easily hurt and tend to run away. But I think I am learning to stand up for myself. Who knows? Maybe one day I will learn to love correctly the way you needed years ago.

I am sorry for everything, for every little inconvenience I caused you or if I ever wasted your time. It is not easy for me to open up, but I am trying to be better. i know you will never recieve this. i am indeed stupid.