Dear brian,

it's been 8 months since you ghosted me, i thought by now i would have moved on. unfortunately i haven't and i am still trying to make up a story in my mind. i miss you a lot or so i think. i make scenarios about you trying to make myself see an ending to our stories. but the ones i imagine would never come true.

lately though there has been some change, im open to anybody but you stay on my mind. there's no one out here for me and the people i find interesting have girlfriends or have given me an ick. but why can't i get an ick from you? you refollowed the girls i told you unfollow. and you told me you blocked them instead. that is one of many hurtful things you have done to me so why am i in love with someone who is horrible for me? you are avoidant and i am anxious. but that doesn't seem to explain why im so into a horrible guy like you.

i'm a sweet girl, mature, respectful, kind, and have rightful morals. i just don't understand why i'm still attached to you. maybe it has something to do with myself. an unmet need. cause deep down i wished i loved myself.