Dear Francis,,

I have shared some of my personal experiences with you, and you did too. There was no judgement in our relationship. You know, those I love you messages you sent to me in English and in German mean a lot to me. You are dear to my heart, really.

Not once have you judged me negatively, and i want to keep it that way. But I can't. I feel burdened that I have to hide this from you. I feel guilty every time I face you in a catholic church knowing full damn well I secretly practice Hellenic Polytheism.

I was born with Catholic parents, raised to be one. But as I grow older, my beliefs changed. When I was introduced to Hellenic Polytheism, I felt connection to it. I feel happy with my religion. Only three of my friends know, and I want to make it four.

But I have this fear that I'll ruin our relationship if I ever reveal this part of me to you. I don't want to lose you, never. I want to experience life to the fullest with you.

I don't know much longer I can keep this a secret from you.