Dear Nobody™,

Let's dive again .I have so much to say but the words can't express what my tears can. Life is unfair but if I see from other's perspective my life is OK ;do I demand to much from it?... I told my best friend that my parents are liking the future daughter in law a lot ,And I am damn sure they will kick me out when they will get her .I am sure about my brother but I wasn't thinking that they are the same. I always say the truth (be it a lot harsh or nice),I think it's a bad thing. My Don frnd (i call her "don" politely)says that every relation's basis is "LIE". But I thought the opposite.I am scared of everything, I want to be independent but i hve no idea that how can i become it. My best frnd said that you are lucky u hve someone in your family who is earning,I am the only person earning in my family. I get it, but for me this is also harder.I only hve restrictions and no clue of life .I ask god to provide me natural death because i can't die on my own( I don't hve that guts).

My mum said tomorrow is ur last grad exam you will be happy....NO, not at all ,I don't hve any clue what I want to do and now you will pressurize me more to get a job and go for govt. exams. And eventually after sometime I will get married to your preffered person. i was never owner of my life and now i think i never will be. Don't you think death is much better than this.
Now this site will provide me suicide helpline, it is of no use...What will happen by talking WHEN I AM THE PROBLEM.
I wish I was never born.