Dear Tobias,

Dearest Tob,
I have so much i want to say to you. I have so much to say, to be honest. I wish you could be here with me, lying in my sofa or next to me in class, and i cant imagine that i fell for you four years ago or that last year I confessed and you told me that you felt the same as me. Did you lied? You laughed with your friends, because you knowed i was alone all the time? You really loved me like you told me you did? It was real? I cant be myself anymore. WHY ARE YOU NOT HERE. I KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU EXCEPT THE COLOR OF YOUR LOVE. YOU PROMISED, YOU TOLD ME YOU LOVED ME ALWAYS. why? if you did not feel that to me, why you told me that? you are such a liar and i am such a fool. A fool that even when she knows you lied, she still loves you. i still love you, i love you more than her. YOU GIVE ME YOUR KISSES FIRST. YOU HOLD MY HAND FIRST, NOT HER.