Dear Nobody™,

In a moment of low moral and loneliness I allowed myself to enter into a gay relationship in college. The man was older than me by several years and it lasted as long as I was in college.

Now, these many years later, I find myself in a gay relationship with a man I know from working as a volunteer. He is gay, no doubt about it, and he is both the initiator and the he takes the lead. I have been unable to break it off and find myself seeing him again and again.

I don't believe I am gay, far from it. But for some reason I have this unsettled part of my life. In college I was the passive party, as I am in this relationship.