Dear P,

So yuppp, I want to write so much. P ik y'll never love me back. Why will you? Cause I'm not worth it bc. But then everything in me screams that we have something even my friend noticed it. But then again I'm not worth your (anyone's) love. Okayyy so here I'll write each and everything I felt for you. (If words are enough to explain my love for you then I'm wordless)

So it all started on April 13, when I told everyone that I like you hehe just for fun but eventually idk I literally dk when it turned out to be true. The way y knew nothing about family relationships (I'll teach y baby), the way I taught y that game (remember? ) that was the first time I touched you (um hand holding? Dk. Js don't take it other way. I'm asexual although) a shiver ran down my spine. Cause Me?! How can I fall for ya dammitt but eventually I did. Then y started effecting my mind so bad that my avoidant shits started screaming me to leave you. And I tried, I talked to dozen men a day but then I ended up telling them all about you. Why I love y, how I love y. Who are you everything related to y P. It has been a month and far already. And im still falling.

I wanna call you baby so bad. I wanna be w you. I want y to be first and last (cause I have never dated). I...idk P if y find all this rubbish or cringe or whatever I'm sorry if you do. But then I can't help I have to tell all this to someone and that someone is this letter prolly.

I LOVE YOU

I love your stupid smile, the way you say "aaram se" whenever I do clumsy shits, the way y lift your brows in confusion, the way y stay calm the you fuckingggg exist bc I love your existence too.
Umm, immaaaa missing y so mucchhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Please come back soon.
That's all? Prolly, if I outlined anything, anywhere I crossed the line. I'm so sorry for that (puppy face w big eyes) please forgive me. Umm, I'm so delusional.

Are you reading this? You dk how desperately I want this letter to be read by you bc. But yeah okay whatever. Umm. Yeah I'm wordless again cause the topic is you bc. Haha wanna know a fun fact? Your birthdate is my id's ps. (Cringe?) Idkkkkk butttt I lowk wanted that so bad. (I want y too so bad) umm it's 8.12 am and the first thing I thought to do is to write it for ya. Cause if incase y read it? I'll be on starts and if in ase y love me back? (I'll be on moooonnnnnnnn bc!) Yeah yeah but that's all delulu. (Delulu is the only selulu) when will ya come back?? Huh? Don't y miss me? I misss yaaaaa so much. Come fast. I misss you. Ummm I think it's enough? I wrote whole 2560 words till now. Ummm yeahhhhhhhh, Ily. Sm

Love you. (If you're reading this js confront me and prolly send me req on ig? Cause I don't have your ID. Annddddd okay. Confront me in irl then.(I'll run).

I'm avoidant. (But you're bringing the lover girl in me back)

I loveveveeeeeeeeee youuuuuuu sm.