Dear Nobody™,

Why is life unfair? Why do I have to live with people who cared less of what I'm supposed to feel? why am I stuck with understanding other people when they can't even understand me in the first place? why am I always the bringer of chaos and all horrible things in life?

Tell me, is it much more convenient that I never existed in their lives? I just wanted to know, 'cause if I were given a second chance to turn back time... I'll do whatever it takes-even when it hurts too much that I can't handle it, just for them to be happy and live a comfortable life. I'd rather not exist just so they could have the life that they've always wanted, I blame myself every day for the things I've done that I could never change. I wish I didn't, I wish.

Why is life so cruel for the people who don't deserve it? I mean, I understand why my life is so difficult right now. I've done things that I shouldn't and I'm simply reaping what I sow, but they don't deserve that. It hurts, it's so painful to be in med. They were right, you can save everybody, but you couldn't save the people you cherish most, in the end you'll question yourself if you're even good enough.

I'd rather not get attached with people, just to avoid those circumstances, maybe they'll stay safe.

I'm tired...