Dear Nobody™,

Children like story but The adults like the real happenings so let's dive in my story. No fantasies but the reality. I don't know from where should I start but let's get it off my heart. I am tired of trying ,exams ,trying to be best, getting a lot of materialistic things (maybe due to trend) and yes crying. I don't know how people have will to live in this very difficult world. I think they are just waiting. Competitive exams are very difficult ,even after passing... learning new things and working for money and betterment would never stop. It will only stop when you stop breathing.I am living this life,not yet cleared any exam,just disappointed in me. I guess everyone is disappointed in me. I don't have friends ,not anything I own,because everything is of my parents and I know they will never give it to me ...I remember them telling that this ring is not hers ,I bought it for her. So,ultimately I don't have anything.I wished I would hve never thought abt wasting my parents money in childhood ,I saved there money a lot. Now I don't hve any money and if I would ask for it they will remind me the money is theirs.I never experienced love or rom-com.I wish to be a child again,having a lot of friends fighting playing and enjoying a lot.It's heavy on heart.I remember people commit suicide but now I get it why they do it.Their mind stops responding to these worldly shit .It is said god listens to you but why doesn't he respond to me. I think I should go to him and then complain but no worries I don't yet have that much guts to do what I am saying.
I know many people and suffering more than me but for me this real shit is enough to break me from inside. Being a very emotional person its really difficult to hve someone who really stays by your side ,I wish I had that someone. Just living alone makes me feel bad , I think now I should stop.Tomorrow I hve to give one more exam....Whatever!
Maybe writing this off feels good but I didn't feel anything...
God made this life beautiful,....
It's all my fault