Dear Nobody™,

I don't know what to do with my life anymore....
I recently got a mental illness diagnosis, and I haven't been the same ever since. It just keeps getting worse, and I don't know what to do...
I always try my best, but somehow it never feels enough, you know, I am here for everybody but myself, which is rhetorical. Still, the burden of holding myself accountable for my better health seems like too much to handle; it's easier to be a source of support for others than for myself, because nothing feels more satisfying than the assurance that you are not alone.
However, I don't get the feeling, it's almost like a recorded taping of what we hear on a day-to-day "I'm here for you", "if you need anything just call" dont get me wrong having a support system is great, but it feels hard to believe that someone cares, you know.
I really want to feel positive emotions right now, and see the future as bright as the sun, but the feeling is persistent, to the point it has become an external part of self
How can you be there for yourself and show up for yourself when you dont know how