Dear Nobody™,

My mind screams and shrieks.
I want to.
I need to.
By my hand.
Or his.
Tears streaming down my face.
My throat burning.
Choking.
My mind screaming for quiet.
For silence.
For quiet.
And quiet.
And quiet.
And I'm tired.
And I can't think.
And it's all loud.
And I want it all to stop.
I want it to be done.
I want to help them.
But I can't.
And I can't.
And I can't.
How could I possibly help them.
I can't even help
Myself.

I'm rocking now.
On the ground shaking.
Crying.
My mind is spinning.
And spinning.
And spinning.
And I can barely stand.
I'm stumbling.
Stumbling towards the edge.
And I can barely stand.
And I can barely think.
And I can barely stand.
And I can barely breathe.
And I'm drowning.
And I'm drowning.
And I'm drowning.
I'm drowning here.
And I can see the train.
And I can see the end.
It's so close.
Just in reach.
It's what I came here to do.
And I'm sorry.
I'm sorry to everyone.
I'm sorry I couldn't fix
Anything.
But I'm done.
I'm done failing.
I'm done ruining everything.
I'm done with wrong place wrong time.
I'm done trying to float.
I'm done struggling to breathe.
I'm done.
I'm done drowning.