Dear Dear Azmar,

Hi baby, how youre doing? its been days after you sent the texts of closure for us . I leave us cause you took my love for granted . you think i'll always be there regardless of what you did to me . those things still haunt me when late at night hits and theres nothing to distract me from thinking about you . it hurts cause i still loved you even when youre not around anymore and you also decided to leave bcs its already been few months since i gave up on us and you tried to reach me , take me back in but i refused to cause im still scared of being haunted by the past. tbh, i miss you . a lot?hahah ya a lot mar :) ive never loved anyone the way i love you . youre my first in everything . my first love . my first experience . how could i leave us when i still had faith in me but im also scared of being hurt . i saw you begged that day , i saw you what did you went through just so you can take me back in , but honestly will it last long? do you really scared of losing me or just scared that nobody gonna love you the way you dont have to ask for ? the way you dont have to speak your language to be understood? ahh, this is so frustrating mar . i miss you so bad enough to make me wanting to text you but i know i cant. i miss our memories. i miss us . so bad . like im down bad tonight to the point im writing this. i miss you so bad baby . i wish us to find our way again and make things right again soon :)